Waiting impatiently to hear if I've been accepted

I'm hoping to start my volunteer work soon. I've chatted to Rico, the project manager for the charity that I'll be going through. He's going to chat to the nursing sister on Wednesday about organising an interview with me. I cannot wait to hear if they accept me and if so, when I can start. With luck I should know something by Wednesday. To be honest, I'm starting to get impatient as I would really like to start working with the children soon.

I know that I should be living in the now, but I keep finding that my mind is just busy with ideas of how to improve the lives of the kids around here. And of course I can do nothing until I get into the work and see what's being done already and how I can contribute.

Scariest of all is the fact that I really want this all to work out. I'm fairly confident that both my touch therapy and the energy healing will be beneficial to the kids. But will these benefits be enough for them to offer me a job? This of course is the question that worries me most.

I know that I have to be patient, but it's so difficult. Taking life one day at a time is easier said than done.

How will I survive the next few months

I have loved my job from day 1.  And then the day I realised I need to be a healer, I have lost all interest in it. This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't need my job to pay my bills. I have both a mortgage bond and car repayments so quitting my job just because I'm bored of it, is not an option.

My healing work will be starting with some part time volunteer work. If what I do, helps the kids, then they will try and get sponsorship to hire me full time.

So over the next few months, I really need to pay off as many of my debts as I can so that if I get offered a salary that is not what I'm used to, I will be able to take it.

The thought of doing my day job for the next few months is hideous. But if I can just stick it out and pay off my credit card, my car and as much of my bond as possible, then I think it'll make my future a lot easier. And give me more options.

In the meantime all I have to do is somehow get through 8 hours a day.

I've discovered my purpose in life

I started having some dreams a week or two back that finally led me to wake up one morning just knowing my career is wrong for me. I realised that I am going to be a healer. And that purpose is also the reason I'm sitting in Uniondale.

About a day later I realised I need to work with alcohol syndrome babies and drug addicted babies. Well, after years of trying to hear my guides, I'm finally getting messages loud and clear.

I've done my Reiki 1 and 2 a few years ago. But I never really used it much as it didn't resonate with me. Then last year I did a Quantum Touch course after having a 15 minute treatment on my back. I've been working with Quantum Touch for a while. But only on friends and family. Up until these odd dreams, I really had no idea that I should be a healer. And I never felt drawn to it before.

I have also realised why I have collected all these herbal books. So now I need to start studying and growing herbs. And then making remedies. But in the meantime, I met someone who told me of another method of healing called the Reconnection. I have just finished learning that and did a session today which went very well.

So it looks like everything I thought I was, and everything I assumed would be part of my life, was wrong.

In the past few months since living in Uniondale, I have changed so much. I'm a much softer person than I was 6 months ago. I'm far more emotional too. But I believe that it's all part of the growth that was needed to prep me to become a healer.

I also realised that my marriage to an alcoholic was necessary. And the reason I was destined to marry him was to learn empathy for kids living in homes with alcoholic parents. It is so weird to finally understand so much about my life all of a sudden. To realise that every step I've taken in the last decade or two, has all been to prepare me for this new role I am to take.

Of course, now that I knew what I wanted to do, I need to start working with these babies and kids. I've spoken to a friend who's involved in charity work in my area. Hopefully I can start with some volunteer work soon.

So I will actually get back to blogging. But there will be a lot more about my journey to help these kids. But I'll also write about my home, my pets and how I eventually get self sufficient. But I do think my journey to become a healer will be the main focus of my life now.

A new year and I'm in my house

Oops - just realised that it's been a really long time since I posted.

I've started making improvements on the house but still have a long way to go. Will post pics shortly.

But hey - I'm learning lots (gonna be doing as much as possible myself).

Still waiting on transfer

I've now signed bond and transfer documents. Paid in my deposit and all costs.


Now it's just a matter of patience (which I sorely lack). I'm hoping transfer will be effected around end of September / beginning of October. But until I hear something further, it's just a long waiting game with no end in sight.


I'm already researching things like ceiling insulation to decide what I want to do before moving into the house. But then it's hard to decide until I have keys to the house. Without measurements, I cannot even get quotes so don't know what is affordable yet.


I guess I should find something to distract me for a month or two. Every time I do research on things to do, it is frustrating. Because I cannot get quotes, cannot make decisions.


Even the new shower is purely academic until I have keys and can measure up to see what size shower will fit into the bathroom.


Sigh....

Bond finally approved

Just a quick update to say I had my bond approved. So now it's just a count down until the day transfer goes through. Then I can move into my own home and settle down at long last.


I'm now staying in the small Karoo town of Uniondale in a rental. I have to confess that I am enjoying it and meeting people all the time.


I love that I can see my new house from the garden of my rental. And I am anxiously waiting for my final move as I have such big plans for that house.

Moving again

Well, I'm moving again. At this point, I've done minimal packing and really couldn't be bothered. I'm packing the most important stuff (like breakables) and will toss the rest into black bags over the next few days.

And of course at this point, I'm still waiting on a bond application. So no clue if this is my last move or if there is another one around the corner. Maybe that's why I'm so disinterested.

But I have to confess, I cannot wait to get out of here. Although I'm in a lovely village, I don't enjoy the house I'm staying in. On days like today, when the wind is howling, it really sounds like the roof is going to blow away. Let's hope it resists the wind at least until after I'm out of here. The rain will not do my poor pc much good.

Seriously though, the owner of this place has a lot of work to make this place into a lovely home.

My new rental accommodation is in much better shape. And walking distance to some shops, a restaurant and a pizza place (and I just love pizza of course). And yay, it has a covered stoep at the back. A place where my kitty can hang outside even when it's raining and I can enjoy the sunshine without dying of heat exhaustion (if summer ever arrives).