Waiting impatiently to hear if I've been accepted

I'm hoping to start my volunteer work soon. I've chatted to Rico, the project manager for the charity that I'll be going through. He's going to chat to the nursing sister on Wednesday about organising an interview with me. I cannot wait to hear if they accept me and if so, when I can start. With luck I should know something by Wednesday. To be honest, I'm starting to get impatient as I would really like to start working with the children soon.

I know that I should be living in the now, but I keep finding that my mind is just busy with ideas of how to improve the lives of the kids around here. And of course I can do nothing until I get into the work and see what's being done already and how I can contribute.

Scariest of all is the fact that I really want this all to work out. I'm fairly confident that both my touch therapy and the energy healing will be beneficial to the kids. But will these benefits be enough for them to offer me a job? This of course is the question that worries me most.

I know that I have to be patient, but it's so difficult. Taking life one day at a time is easier said than done.

How will I survive the next few months

I have loved my job from day 1.  And then the day I realised I need to be a healer, I have lost all interest in it. This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't need my job to pay my bills. I have both a mortgage bond and car repayments so quitting my job just because I'm bored of it, is not an option.

My healing work will be starting with some part time volunteer work. If what I do, helps the kids, then they will try and get sponsorship to hire me full time.

So over the next few months, I really need to pay off as many of my debts as I can so that if I get offered a salary that is not what I'm used to, I will be able to take it.

The thought of doing my day job for the next few months is hideous. But if I can just stick it out and pay off my credit card, my car and as much of my bond as possible, then I think it'll make my future a lot easier. And give me more options.

In the meantime all I have to do is somehow get through 8 hours a day.

I've discovered my purpose in life

I started having some dreams a week or two back that finally led me to wake up one morning just knowing my career is wrong for me. I realised that I am going to be a healer. And that purpose is also the reason I'm sitting in Uniondale.

About a day later I realised I need to work with alcohol syndrome babies and drug addicted babies. Well, after years of trying to hear my guides, I'm finally getting messages loud and clear.

I've done my Reiki 1 and 2 a few years ago. But I never really used it much as it didn't resonate with me. Then last year I did a Quantum Touch course after having a 15 minute treatment on my back. I've been working with Quantum Touch for a while. But only on friends and family. Up until these odd dreams, I really had no idea that I should be a healer. And I never felt drawn to it before.

I have also realised why I have collected all these herbal books. So now I need to start studying and growing herbs. And then making remedies. But in the meantime, I met someone who told me of another method of healing called the Reconnection. I have just finished learning that and did a session today which went very well.

So it looks like everything I thought I was, and everything I assumed would be part of my life, was wrong.

In the past few months since living in Uniondale, I have changed so much. I'm a much softer person than I was 6 months ago. I'm far more emotional too. But I believe that it's all part of the growth that was needed to prep me to become a healer.

I also realised that my marriage to an alcoholic was necessary. And the reason I was destined to marry him was to learn empathy for kids living in homes with alcoholic parents. It is so weird to finally understand so much about my life all of a sudden. To realise that every step I've taken in the last decade or two, has all been to prepare me for this new role I am to take.

Of course, now that I knew what I wanted to do, I need to start working with these babies and kids. I've spoken to a friend who's involved in charity work in my area. Hopefully I can start with some volunteer work soon.

So I will actually get back to blogging. But there will be a lot more about my journey to help these kids. But I'll also write about my home, my pets and how I eventually get self sufficient. But I do think my journey to become a healer will be the main focus of my life now.